Hola

I'm hanging my head in shame--I've been such a bad, bad blogger. In my defense, I've been really busy, all in good ways. I'm loving my new job. Its a new direction for me, and if I stick with it, it will give me the contacts to launch a completely freelance career in writing, which seems like the ideal career to complement motherhood. Plus, my other green card application (the one that gets me my green card immediately without having to wait in queue) came through! Ridiculously happy about it. I miss America, and want to get back as soon as possible, but yet, have plan B to think about. Still, its nice to have the option.

As for Plan B, it is on ice while I settle into my new job. I'm in this curious state of peace. If you think about it, I've gone through a lot-- 3 miscarriages, 1 failed IVF. But, when not actually going through pregnancy or getting 5 injections a day, I'm actually fine. This feels bizarre- how can I be so totally okay, given all I have been through?

In a couple of months, when I've settled into my new gig, I'll think about the next round of IVF. In the meantime, I'm loading up on the supplement regimen of CCRM;well, atleast some of it.

L-argenine was very bad for me, it messed up my system so badly after 2 days of being on it that I had to stop.

Myo-inositol is something I'm taking, and this is a very interesting one. It seems the best choice for people with PCOS. Its definitely causing changes in my system- whether these will help, hinder or do nothing at all remains to be seen. One of these days, I'll do a literature review of this in fertility- overall, it seems really promising.

Two really interesting things have happened: My antral follicle count is now sustained at around 25 (over the past 3 months), up from the average of around 14 when my Vitamin D levels were very high. The other thing, my DHEAS levels are coming down. This was around 250 when I was vitamin D deficient, climbed to around 350 while  my levels were super high, and now are around 180. This high levels of this hormone was my only concrete sign of PCOS, so this change has the potential to be important. I HOPE this is a good sign, but my physiology is so weird, one can never say anything.

Anyway, I apologize for the long silence. Sadly, I cannot promise to be a frequent blogger, but I'll try to say something atleast once or twice a month. I also want to say congrats to Augusta, who was, at long last, blessed with motherhood. Augusta, you have had such a long road here, I'm SO glad you have made it!