In my first pregnancy, I often frequented the baby and bump forums, and I'd find all these women coming up with thread tittles like, 'I'm bleeding, please help!'. The last part always used to surprise me, like how on earth can a bunch of women on message boards (or even qualified doctors) help you??? This is between you and nature, and if nature decides to wallop you, then that is what is going to happen.
But now I understand what they mean by help (or somewhat do). But the one person who could help now, would be my mother. I wish she was here. Going through this alone is so bloody tough.
Ok, its the end of the day, and the bleeding (if you can call it that, several little strings of very dark red stuff, maybe enough to fill up a teaspoon at best) lasted only the morning. And I had tons of creamy CM with it. Now its all dried up, there is nothing.
I've been on thyroid hormone for around 6 weeks now and my TSH is very low now, but according to the docs, still in normal range. If your TSH is very low or undetectable, then its a good indicator that you may be hyperthyroid, that you got too much hormone. According to the last test (2 weeks ago) I'm not there yet, but then I'm nervous because it has been two weeks since and things might have changed. Its fairly illogical at this point but in my head I'm linking hyperthyroidism to increased risk of m/c (and maybe blaming it for the bleed too); Does not add up scientifically but try telling that to my panicky brain!
I still have the symptoms of high progesterone, the sore boobs and the other pregnancy symptoms. After every meal today I've felt like I might throw up. I have no idea what to make of any of this.
Right now, I'm feeling neither positive, nor negative---I'm just numb, and kinda sleepy, which helps tremendously. Hope this will not be one of those nights when the fear is so great it wakes you up at odd hours.
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