I had my retrieval last night. They got 11 eggs, so that did not seem too shabby.
I came home, was given Lyrica by my mom and went straight to sleep. Around 3 am, my parents woke me up. My cat, who likes to hang out in our garden (only at night, she is so contrary), which is gated and fenced, was attacked by feral stray dogs that came in through the gate somebody left slightly ajar. My dogs, who were inside the house started barking and my dad and housekeeper rushed out,chased the dogs away, to find her mauled and barely alive. They bought her in and 10 minutes later she died.
This was a cat I'd rescued from a shelter. I formed such a deep bond with her that when I left the country, I bought her with me, to keep her safe and give her a good life. It took her a while to get adjusted- which she finally did and now, this happened. I could not keep her safe, I feel so guilty and I'm such a mess emotionally, I can't believe she is gone, I have not been able to stop crying since I woke up this morning.
To add to the misery (that is all that seems to be on the menu for now), I got the fertilization report- out of the 11 eggs, only 4 were mature(in the M2 stage), and 3 out of the 4 fertilized. None of the 2 M1s fertilized, and from the 4 immature eggs, which were put through in vitro maturation, one made it to M1 and was injected with sperm today.
So at the very best, I may end up with 4 blasts to freeze on day 5, but I doubt I will be that lucky.
My RE is baffled-my case is so, so weird. He says he will do another IVF only if something changes with my AFC or AMH, but right now, I am a shitty responder to superovulation, apparently.
The best thing for me would be to try again naturally- I've gotten pregnant 3 out of 4 times. But I'm done with that- I can't handle another loss.
I'll figure out what to do later, but right now, I'm shaken and saddened to my very core. Out of the two horrible things that have happened today- If I could make the universe fix one of these 2 things, it would be what happened to my poor, poor cat.
When the universe hurls crap at you, boy is it generous.
I came home, was given Lyrica by my mom and went straight to sleep. Around 3 am, my parents woke me up. My cat, who likes to hang out in our garden (only at night, she is so contrary), which is gated and fenced, was attacked by feral stray dogs that came in through the gate somebody left slightly ajar. My dogs, who were inside the house started barking and my dad and housekeeper rushed out,chased the dogs away, to find her mauled and barely alive. They bought her in and 10 minutes later she died.
This was a cat I'd rescued from a shelter. I formed such a deep bond with her that when I left the country, I bought her with me, to keep her safe and give her a good life. It took her a while to get adjusted- which she finally did and now, this happened. I could not keep her safe, I feel so guilty and I'm such a mess emotionally, I can't believe she is gone, I have not been able to stop crying since I woke up this morning.
To add to the misery (that is all that seems to be on the menu for now), I got the fertilization report- out of the 11 eggs, only 4 were mature(in the M2 stage), and 3 out of the 4 fertilized. None of the 2 M1s fertilized, and from the 4 immature eggs, which were put through in vitro maturation, one made it to M1 and was injected with sperm today.
So at the very best, I may end up with 4 blasts to freeze on day 5, but I doubt I will be that lucky.
My RE is baffled-my case is so, so weird. He says he will do another IVF only if something changes with my AFC or AMH, but right now, I am a shitty responder to superovulation, apparently.
The best thing for me would be to try again naturally- I've gotten pregnant 3 out of 4 times. But I'm done with that- I can't handle another loss.
I'll figure out what to do later, but right now, I'm shaken and saddened to my very core. Out of the two horrible things that have happened today- If I could make the universe fix one of these 2 things, it would be what happened to my poor, poor cat.
When the universe hurls crap at you, boy is it generous.
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